Changes

I can't bear
This air that we take in
It was never ours
Nowhere near even
Why do I suffocate myself this way
When you're breathing fine
Abba was it really me this time?
Was it completely me this time?
I am free to struggle
I thank-You that You've set me free
Our ways have changed
Our faces have hardened
And I'm shaking with fear
My heart trembles
At the thought of you
I can't look at you
The way I used to anymore
I fear to even turn your way
And pray that our eyes don't meet
When I do steal a moment
I've forgotten the one that I knew
I admired you
And looked at you longingly...

I soon look away
Do you think I've changed?
Do you think I pushed you away?
Forgive me
Forgive me
Please let it go
Don't give up this way