Non-existent

I can't believe you
When you pretended
Like I didn't exist
In the name of
The preference
Of my own company over yours


In hurt humility
I told you how I feel like such a hypocrite
In slow tears
My voice tattered
By my own shame
I am a mess
I don't know how long I'll last this way
How I've been burying death
For so long now
And I settle for living
Without knowing
What it would be like
If they all knew
What it was like
For me