Interning

I’ve forgotten what it was like 

Doing this that I love 

Doing what makes me happy 

Months on end 

I have endlessly complained 

And have convinced 

Both others and myself to believe 

That there is no room for me to grow

That there is no room for change 

I have lost enough trust 

To plan out in my head 

What steps to take -

Should I miss my station 

When did I forget

To depend on you?

You will guide me forever 

I’ve believed that then 

What happened to me now?