Hiding

I can't take you seriously anymore

All the hurt and the questions

I let my find feel

How can they be true

I'm trying to make my way through

one corridor after another

I don't even know the way out

But I'll try this path

I'll reach the door

Without having to lose anything

Steal me

That my joy in You may not be stolen

Find me

That my hope in You may be alive

I thank-you 

That I am dearly loved by You

Please take all of me

I want to free myself of

Everyone I genuinely love

With a love that lives from a distance

Yes, the same love

It's a one that hopes for only good

I want your joy to be apart from me

I want to run away from you
And drive far away

I remember the night I cried thinking about you
Wishing I never knew you

And it pained me to think that such a thought

Would go so far as to form and cross my mind

You live your life

I will love you from where I am

I can't even look you in the eye 

anymore

All these lies

All this darkness in the light of lies

Don't be nice to me

Don't speak a word, even

Please forget about me

See me as a burden if you want to

Let me go by my years -

Without you
I want to free myself of you

You're yet another person
I hurt from

With whom I go by
As if nothing ever happened

I become a drooling dog

Who keeps chasing you
Hoping for something

I'm grateful for all the lessons you've taught me

But oh Teacher

Why can't I look you in the eye?

Why can't I trust your heart for me anymore?

I am afraid of what you think of me
Tell me again

That I am ugly
That I am lacking and inadequate

Please don't be kind to me 

Don't ever be bothered by me
Go by your way

Love on the people who come to you

I will love you from where I am 

In my hurt

I will love you 

Apart from all that I now know 

You fell didn't you?