A Mess

Dishonour
Give me dishonour
My heart wrestles with fear
I can't look at you 
I'm afraid of what's coming
Help me to respect 
The application of a choice
I'm afraid of what's coming
Love is unconditional
Unconditional
Please don't let each other go
My emotions are silenced
I am angered by the dishonour I feel
Within my soul
Stirs me up
I want to labour to rest
Forget yesterday
Live for only today
In the dumah of my soul
I am tensed and angry 
I am worried and fearing
I am in fear
I am shaking
Every word is coming at me
Like a regret
I'm being pulled into a past 
I hope for freedom from
Every word like a recurring voice