I Don't Know

I always lose you to your wanderings
As I find myself speaking to the air
A time more 
The very few times I speak at all       
I lose you here 
I lose you in the here and now 
I can't utter a word 
I need courage to approach 
I need courage to speak 
I'm going to back where I once was
I thought I was past that season 
But I'm treading familiar ground 
I'm stumbling
Every breath is heavy
And filled with longing and question                       

I can't seem to go forward 
Look at the bruises on my feet 
Please pick me up 
Don't leave me alone       
Tell me again         
Where you are