Honestly

It’s funny to me

It has been about half a year

Since I’ve heard from you

And about two years

Since I’ve seen you

You told me that you were glad –

Glad that you didn’t lose me

But I don’t know

I’m not so sure anymore

It’s funny

How you were there for me

To choose to love me

And befriend me

At my terrible worst

I wish you could see me now

Because I met Him

I met Him

At my worst

I feel farther away from you

With every day

Just like I did

Many years ago

When I said goodbye

And ran for my life

With my shoelaces untied

I wouldn’t ever expect you

To wait for me

To hold on to me

But I’m tired

And in need of a friend

I’m tired

But still so thankful

For knowing you

Don’t ever forget our dream

That Aurora of ours

I won’t ever forget

The times you made me laugh

And smile

Please forgive me

Please forgive me

I’m not who I was

Love met me

Oh how I hope you’re safe

And that you have good friends

Who look after you

I don’t even know where you are

I don’t even know if I’ll ever see you again

Remember how you once said

How nice it would be

If we met in heaven?

I wouldn’t mind that

One bit

But –

How I wish I could talk to you again

I remember how you said that 

Just because we're not able to talk anymore

It doesn't mean that I'm not there in your heart

You said that you always loved me

How you never stopped

That you miss me -

Your best friend

I want to hold onto every one of your words

And hope with all my life

That it’s still the truth

Even after 

All this time.