See You Again

My heart is tired 

And I feel lonely 

Can we pretend that time in its passing

didn't keep us apart?

I have you for a moment 

But then you’re gone again

You’re close 

And so far away

All the same  

Is it that I lose nothing

But that I give it up 

Is this my choosing?

Betraying Him in my thoughts

Chasing after lesser loves 

Trying to steal what you can't give 

Wishing I was where you are 

Why do I feel so lonely?

What we have 

Like grass

Here today 

Gone tomorrow 

Pulled out by the roots 

A pretence of permanence 

This love we think we hold

But can’t you see?

Can’t you feel it?

Our hearts are broken 

And we can’t be there for each other 

Like we say we would 

We can’t go on loving each other 

Like we say we do 

I’m afraid to say hello again 

So I’ll leave you without a goodbye 

We are not enough for each other 

But we somehow fill these gaps 

Like chipped-off paint we can’t undo 

We somehow leave these gaps 

Your every word breaks a fall 

But I am not held here 

I feel so alone 

I’ve been colouring outside the lines 

And that’s so unlike me 

Trying to fill the blank sacred spaces 

With meaning 

Trying to make something of us 

When there isn’t 

My tranquility is shaken 

And I can’t trust you 

I'm afraid to say that I love you

I thought I never wanted to see you again 

But I don’t know what I don’t know 

So I'll wait for you