Runaway
I want to run
away from you
At least for a
little while
Our love
Blow after blow
Leaves my heart
crushed
And I’m praying
here
That I don’t
turn bitter
So I’ll keep
away from you
Not because I’m
scared –
This time
But simply
because I need some time
To forget
Your opinions of
me
How you box me
in
Neither subject
to change
Nor a renewing
love
But here I am to you
An insensitive narcissist
An insensitive narcissist
Who couldn’t
care less about you
Little do you
know
How far out you
are
How I’m always
Always looking
out for you
How my heart
overflows
With unseen love
For you
Every time it
hurts
Every time you
leave me
To break
To fall
May my heart
overflow
With this
unquestioning forgiveness
May I forget
your insensitivity
May I never stop
to remember
Your unkind
words
Choosing to not
remember
May I live
loving you
Forever
You are all I
have
I can’t lose you
in my bitterness
I can’t lose you
in my sadness
I’ll only bleed
Tears
Seemingly endless
tears
Alone here in
these temporary places
I’ll let my
heavy sadness
Run its course
I have only you
If only you knew
My heart for you
When it’s my
turn to leave
It would be my
biggest regret
That would kill
me
(I’m sure)
You not knowing
My heart for you
The things I do
for you
Without words,
Is it possible?
To make our
heartfelt intentions known?
Leaving nothing
to unrealistic assumptions
Leaving nothing
to our cruel thoughts
To create
Is it possible?
I need time to
forget
And so I’ll run
away
At least for a
little while
Because I’m
tired
And I can’t keep
taking
Your blow after
blow
Where are we
now?
How you box me
in
Like I have no
capacity
To love
But I wish you
knew
It’s because I
have Love
That I make it
through
Do you know what
I know?
I have Love
To change me
To comfort me
To pull me
through
These temporary
places
I don’t want to
run away from you
Stop sending me
off
Up and running
Every time you
Stab me in my
heart
Brutal and quick
A kind of pain
that’s sharp
And aging with
sadness
A deep, unknown,
Weak sadness
I mustn’t lose
you here
I should run for
a while
And come back
just as soon
I can’t live
knowing
I was a runaway
With you
I should come
back soon
May the rush of
air
As cold as our
heartless ways
Make me feel
Feel
wholeheartedly
All that there is
to feel
And let go
Where are we
now?
What is this
love?
One an unknowing
soul
Another a broken
one
Always running
we are
You from my true
heart
And me from my
own self.
It's a good heart touching one.
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